LEsT I fORGet…ReMiND mE

Stand firm and be still, this too shall pass.

Life’s trials are not easy but in God’s will, each has a purpose. Warren Wiersbe

When we start a new path in our lives and we face challenges, mostly we tend to run back to that which is familiar/old. Hence the saying ‘Better the devil you know than the angel you don’t’. Because the familiar things even though we faced challenges while there, we learnt how to cope with the familiarity that came with those trials/toxicity. Hence, the devil deceives us that we are way comfortable in the mess we already know. In other words, we learnt to maneuver our ways in familiar territories of oppression and suppression. Whether mentally, physically or emotional. I bet, that’s why we stay where we are, afraid to start a fresh… always going back to that “devil” you and I know how to deal with. I remember coming to Britain, the first weeks were fine and full of excitement that comes with going abroad. However, winter happened! and the reality checked in. I felt like God had thrown me into the deep-end. The cold weather was driving me nuts (till now) plus I hate the fact that by three p.m it gets dark during this season. Adapting was hard, I could not make friends, the intensity of my postgraduate and pressure back home where financial assistance was needed. Lacking the understanding that I was starting a new life, in a different country. Therefore, I needed time before anyone could call me over any assistance. I did not picture my situation being as it was back then. As a result, I found myself complaining to God that I was not able to do it and I found myself thinking I am better off where I had been. God worked on me and through the Holy Spirit I saw how I had let my guard down leaving a gap for the enemy to play mind games with my circumstances. The enemy knows the mind, filling us with thoughts of doubts of how it’s not worth it. Displaying a perception to us how this is the exact opposite of what we prayed for. How our current possession of the promise currently is not the image of what you asked of the Lord. Through Exodus God reminded me of Israelites and how they complained to a point they told Moses they would rather be back in Egypt. Forgetting the suffering and crying for help from God that they once did. Yet God was faithful, sending Moses his servant. Through him, He performed great signs and wonders; depicting an evidence of a faithful and loving Father. A God who is self sufficient, willing to go extra length to deliver His children who were destitute in their suffering. Only for them to forget every single promise from God at their point of deliverance and to start complaining in the wilderness. He promised to be with them always …to give them provision… to protect them. Psalm 105:39-42 He spread a cloud for a covering; and fire to give light in the night. The people asked, and he brought quails, and satisfied them with the bread of heaven. He opened the rock, and the waters gushed out; they ran in the dry places like a river. For he remembered his holy promise, and Abraham his servant. However, they forgot! According to them, the challenges they faced on their way to the promise land caused them to question God. As a result, they began having doubt in His Word. This erased everything God had done to deliver them. Just because they faced trials on their way to promise Land. Their faith was clouded.

Next God used Noah’s story to remind me of a Heart that genuinely receives favor from God. Noah Built an Ark as per God’s instructions it was to withstand the water that would destroy the whole earth. How many of us see how Tsunamis leave a trail of destruction on their path? Well let’s imagine how much and how strong the water is, to be able to destroy the earth. Noah and his family must have faced serious times in that Ark. They must have been thrown about, as am sure it was not smooth sailing. Huh!! Lord this was not the plan, we did not build an ark to be thrown around in the waters …this is too much one can barely drink a glass of water before its shaken from your hand and don’t forget the smell of animals excreting everywhere. God this was not the plan according to what you said it sounded like we should have been merry and enjoying the cruise but this being thrown around is too much. Am assuming that this is what might have happened. However, the Bible does not say that. Rather shows a man who knew God who is self existent and full of wisdom and was in tune with His ways. To a point he got out of the Ark after 21 days of checking if the earth was habitable. I see a man of God even in his season of waiting, he did not ask or command God to please dry the world. For he was in hurry to get out maybe the Ark was smelling or he had done his part. No way instead the day he was absolute from the pigeon that it was good enough he still waited for seven days then got out and the first thing he did was to sacrifice to God in order to worship Him… Show Gratitude and reverence, His Great and Mighty ways wonders to perform. One thing I know is that he could not have done this by himself, for the spirit of God must have been poured in him. How many of us show this amount of patience when God gives us instructions concerning our deliverance from that place/job/addiction/financial hardships He wants us to be in. As a result, we see God establishing a covenant through Noah’s sacrifice made after obedience and patience. I am guilty of this lack of patience and obedience …fretting. Forgetting my stones of remembrance and allowing the enemy to play tricks on me so that I only see the challenges now and less of the evidence of what God has previously done to lead me where I am. There is a reason why God performs the signs and wonders, He wants us to remember and always know that He is God and there is none before Him…none compares to Him and none can stand against Him. He is and remains everlasting God. Dear, Lord I want to be like Noah knowing what you had told me will come to pass that these trials I face are making me grow for the very purpose you created me. I am not perfect Lord, forgive us for we are all struggling in different aspects of our lives help us lord. Lest we forget, remind us through your Word the evidence of your works over our lives. For we acknowledge the provisions and protection over our lives, you are Alpha and Omega and through your covenant established for us. Through your son Jesus Christ, lest we forget that you put all this plan in place for our benefit for the very purpose you set in us. For your Word say All things work together for good to them that love you. Therefore, we humble ourselves and seek you. In awe of your presence remember us Lord, we beseech you not to forget us. For you promised through your Word to the Israelites if my children who are called by my name …Lord may this promise find us in this last days as our souls’ hunger for you. Lest we forget… remind us!!!

“That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong”. – Paul’s Vision and His Thorn

Valleys & Hills to Motherhood

“The loveliest masterpiece of the heart of God is the heart of a mother”

They say every mother has a story to tell. Well, allow me to include you in this journey of praying for a miracle, asking God for a baby. A prayer that renewed my faith and led to divine alignment as well as enlightenment.

We welcomed our darling daughter on 12th July at 9:25 p.m. she was overdue by eleven days. However, am believer that Jesus Christ is always on time. Therefore, anything with God’s imprint/Word on it can never be late. Our B-E-A-U-tiful princess came at the appointed date and time.

The journey to becoming a mother was not easy on my part, having suffered a traumatic miscarriage two years exactly before the birth of our daughter. Then came the ‘trying’ period in between before her conception. I can attest that this was something I never anticipated. I never once thought that I would get to a place where I would seek my Father’s presence and say Dear Lord, if it is thy will according to the desires within my heart would you please bestow me your honour and make me a mother. It seems farfetched then being that I thought babies we were made as easy as ABC and that it was all up to us the ‘babymakers’. This season of my life has brought Jeremiah 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” to a deeper spiritual awakening. God chose us before conception. He knew my daughter would be here, she is not an accident, each of her needs have already been met, her provisions and protection have been set in place. All under one covenant, the Lamb of God Jesus Christ.

Note, when troubles continue long, hopes have been often frustrated, and all creature-confidence fall, it is not strange if the spirit sink; and nothing but an active faith in the power, promise and providence of God will keep them from quite dying away. the height of prosperity to which, notwithstanding this, they shall be advanced: “therefore, because things have come thus to the last extremity, prophesy to them, and tell them, now is God’s time to appear for them.”,

O dry bones, Hear the Word of God Come Alive! Ezekiel 37:1-14

This prayer was made because there was a deep desire that only the creator of heaven and earth could fulfil. I desired a baby at time when my doctor was saying I was not medically fit to even carry one. Her advice was ‘wait’ at the same time there was a lot of consultation within my medical team if I should even go ahead and ‘try’. I felt deflated and hopeless after the medical review. I had to wait! I remember leaving the hospital feeling desperate. In that moment I stated my conversation with god. Why would I have this desire, yet it appeared impossible now. The Holy Spirit calmly instructed me go ahead you are ready. Contrary to doctor’s opinion. The greatest physician steps into the scene and He says “with the Father all things are possible” Matthew 19:26.

 

When I reflect on this period where I was actively trying for a baby, it dawns on me how human beings are limited in all capacity. More so, when you want something so bad; our walk holds a selfish perspective…and that was me. I would feel a tug in my gut when someone would tell me how they got pregnant by mistake or It just happened. It got to a point where I would just try and process how all this was happening to others and not me. Then other times, I would remember my situation was not anything and that at least there was hope since I had conceived before. I would encourage myself that there were women waiting on the Lord for years, an evidence through His Word. I also remember becoming anxious during my menstrual cycle; I would catch myself disappointed at the sight of it all. Every month would be “okay this is it” Hence, my mind would sometimes play tricks on me and I would exhibit early like pregnancy symptoms. I bought a lot of pregnancy test kits which am sure my husband saw in the bin 🤦‍. This was such a testing and trying phase, I believe at some point I was losing my sanity. I thank God for a wonderful partner, he grounded me through his patience, always relieving the pressure i felt and reminding that it will happen. That it was up to God and not us. We were just channels and vessels He uses to bring His own children in this world. We had no hand in it! However, to be honest I did drive him crazy with all the positions among other things such; as today is that day, am ovulating. All this sounds hilarious now but at that time it was a serious issue. He gave me a good man.

Anyway, my turning point came when I saw this lady, I follow on social media give a testimony on how she was expecting yet the odds were against her medically. We serve a living God, our ability to conceive rests in His hands. He alone can open and shut our wombs. Rather than rejoice on her behalf this time my heart was pained. I asked God how comes am still struggling? I had been desiring and praying this for over a year Lord. Then in that moment, the Holy Spirit rebuked me. I remember I was in a bus and tears were streaming down my face. when I reached home, I went straight to my bedroom and repented before God. As I left His presence,  The Holy Spirit whispered Romans 8:28 All things work together for good. I rested my faith in Him no more letting comparison steal my joy. I stopped being crazy about becoming a mother and went back to enjoying my marriage. Building my foundation and just fostering myself spiritually. I wanted my womb blessed, but it was no longer my focal point. Months later the signs from God began backed by His Word… The Holy Spirit was on top of things, confirming everything so clearly, I thought I was moving mad. Then God put it my heart to talk to someone specific about my “trying” journey. Unbeknownst to me God had imprinted on her to look for me as well and help me in this venture. Two months in after all ‘this’ nothing happened. I was growing impatient. Thank God once again for a husband who is full of faith and supportive, he knew it would happen. Just like that in the third month from when God told to get ready and prepare. Just when we least expected, it happened.

We were expecting!!!

Children are indeed a heritage from the LORD,

and the fruit of the womb is His reward.

Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,

so are children born in one’s youth.

Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them.

He will not be put to shame

when he confronts the enemies at the gate

Psalm 127:3-5